Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Heavy Thinking....


I have been thinking  a lot lately.  So if your not ready to hear me babble some you may want to close out the page.  Things are so up in the air with the day to day. The drought has brought on so much uncertainty.  We have to make sure that we have enough hay for the winter. We need to decide how much corn to keep back to feed the cattle for the winter.  We got our preg check done to see who is bred and who isn't.  And hopefully the corn crop wont be a total loss.  That effects the income.  But all those things are part of what we do.  Farming is dependant on the weather and Gods plan.

There has also been so much sadness in our lives lately.  My Uncle is battling a deadly illness.  And does so with the strength of a man who is amazing.  My best friend has breast cancer and is starting treatments next week.  And she has such courage and grace. Another childhood friend is helping her father battle cancer while going through her own life changing.  And she always has a smile and a kind word for someone.   My SIL's best friend it watching her mother in the battle of her life.  A gal that is my age is hospitalized with illness and she has four small children.  One of them being less a month old.  Another family had their little babe several weeks early.  They had the joy of being blessed with her for a while before she got her angel wings yesterday.  And there is the daily story of another family getting divorced or a child that has been harmed.

 It truly makes me reflect on everything that i have been blessed with.  I lay awake and listen to my husband sleeping safely beside me.  Knowing that my beautiful babies are tucked safe and healthy in their beds.  And i know some of the burden that these families are struggling with.  Just like so many of you.  And when I think about it I know for every season there is a reason.  And only God knows the plan.  So stop and enjoy your family.  Take those photos however silly they may be.  Get up a little early and sit and watch the sun rise.  You might surprise yourself how much you realize you are missing.

Thanks for letting me babble.  And cry my eyes out while I'm typing this.  But i feel better. 
Have a great day!

6 comments:

Alica said...

Thanks for sharing...life just doesn't make sense sometimes, does it? Sending hugs your way!
I'll be writing one of those posts with tears running down my face soon...as my friend who was in a bike accident is dying. I take comfort in knowing that she is ready to meet her maker!

Birds, Bees, Berries, and Blooms said...

My heart goes out to you. I can only say from experience that you must have some lows so that you can appreciate the highs. Good luck to all those around you that are suffering now.

Jent said...

<3 Hugs-I know exactly how you feel.

Buttons said...

Oh I am bawling right along with you. I am so sorry for everything that is going on in your life.
I has been going through a lot of changes too so I truly understand your worry and pain and I wish I could hug you and tell you all will be alright.
I truly live each day to its fullest and I listen to my husband sleep peacefully beside me TOO and Thank God for the things that are going well in my life and others.
It is very hard to watch and read about others going through such trying times but we all are in this together and I truly want you to know I am thinking of you and praying things will improve. HUGS lots of hugs. B

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Cow Pies & Mud Pies said...

Sending big hugs to you~
I simply don't understand the why's...and daily ask God the same question!
Thinking of you and your friends/family.